However, I don't think in numbers. I am more of a "concept person." I think in the abstract. I think in terms of relationships and in the big picture. I have a more holistic approach to education and knowledge. A more eternal perspective.
I suppose there is truth in the proverb "we fear that which we do not understand." And by golly, have I feared those numbers!
For me, numbers have always seemed to feel feel so rigid, so set in stone, so final, so unforgiving. They seemed to be what "justice" would be if not tempered by mercy. Also, because they are so quantifiable they seemed to judge me so harshly. I sometimes manipulate them to show myself just how "imperfect" I am. In the case of time, these numbers simply slip away without there being anything to show for it.
However, it's all about how we choose to perceive something. Numbers....numbers are not real. They are great! They are a wonderful tool! But that is all they are. A construct to assist us. A tool that can be very helpful at times, but a tool which has also been wielded in a course of destruction.
I hope to keep understanding numbers better. I hope to keep developing the more rational, logical part of my brain and not simply react to life. I hope to keep seeing things as they really are.
p.s. The same problems that I have had with numbers, I sometimes have with pictures. In such cases I just remember that "I" am not a snapshot of this moment in time. This comforts me. :)
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