There's not just 'one way' to be happy.Let the pieces fall...fall where they may.You can't catch them in the air--Nor plan your course 'round who knows where.You know your end, so experiment along the way!--me, just now. :)
Okay. So if you couldn't tell...I'm not asleep yet.
I've been thinking. a very dangerous and wonderful thing to do.
For the past couple weeks I have been going through several boxes. Boxes which I have not been able to go through for years...and not for lack of effort, but because I wasn't ready to let go.
I have a past. Everybody does.
It astounds me, just how hard it is to let it go. Sometimes there is needless guilt and shame. At other times the siren sings her sweet song of happy memories and nostalgic "better times." This is like poison for the would-be-baggage-free sailor of change. The pain of certain recollections can also act like quicksand, spiraling you down into an abyss of tainted memories. There is confusion. Uncertainty. Fear. An unwillingness to let go. Not knowing how.
It is hard to let go.
But I am on this voyage of change. I am taking a chance. The chance to live.
I am leaving for Provo, Utah in a week. Hopefully to attend BYU-Provo. My plans have not settled yet. I am exploring possibilities. SO MANY possibilities. (even more when you are an insomniac with a predilection to planning and re-planning your life every night)
I don't know what my life will hold...but is Really is WONDERFUL!! :D
Even when I don't believe it.
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