Disappointed.

I am not running the St. George marathon this next weekend and it breaks my heart! I have had a combination of injuries, lack of consistent training, and an extinguished motivation. Lately, I feel as if all of my motivation for everything has died. I know I could run it...but I just don't have the will to feel miserable for 3.5 to 4 hours. I have been waiting to do this run for YEARS. I guess I will just have to wait a little longer. I hope to begin running consistently again soon. I refuse to push too hard anymore...it is painful, wearying, and counterproductive (remember the injuries?). No fractured hips, ruined knees, or long-term hatred of running. I LOVE RUNNING and I refuse to ruin that by a few bad months. I lived and breathed to run this marathon so I must live and breathe to run once more.

That is all.